The past few days have been quite a hectic days. Whenever I told myself that I should cut down on the number of experiments I plan to do in a day so that I can go home before 8pm, it never seemed to work. Once I get one thing done, it leads to another experiment.
At the mean time, it's been quite fun days. Have you ever had days in high school when your crush or the person you admires so much past by you and your heart starts to beat faster? Or when you feel like you have to say all the right things to this one person? It's been like that these past few days. I have yet to meet the person but that's exactly how I feel. When the phone rings, my mind start to search for the right thing to say. Should we talk about this? Would he care? Am I telling too much? What if he gets bored? But after a while, all those thoughts are gone and we're just chatting happily away like we've known each other for a long time.
Every morning when I wake up, the first thing that I want to do is to check my e-mail. Did he have time to e-mail me last night? Did he think of me last night? It's not love. No, at least I don't think so. I've yet to met the person but it never once crosses my mind to wonder if he's fat or thin, ugly or good looking. I wonder why? I usually do wonder when I meet a person online. But this time it's different. There's just the need to talk to him, to share stuff with him or to just have fun and joke. Even just thinking of him makes me smile. Furthermore, we have so many common interest together that it feels good to know that someone actually do understand the importance of my work. And how often can one find a guy who likes to go for a walk? It's rare. It's weird that when we talk, we make plans about where to go and what to do. But if feels right. It might not happen but knowing that I've explored this in mind with someone...it just feels good.
It's a rare vivacity.
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