Salsa!!

Despite not being able to check off all the stuff on Ping's to-do-list, Ping did went Salsa dancing last night. Didn't go to Malecon. Went to the one on campus instead. It was pretty fun initially. But there were more undergrads who don't know how to dance real salsa that it became pretty boring. It definitely bring back the good memories at Malecon...especially a memory of someone (haha..no details available!!) It's been a long time since Ping had gone there...maybe two months?? But if Ping wanna go back there on Saturdays, Ping gotta start getting more focus on the stuff she should be doing rather than getting distracted. Otherwise, weekends become the time Ping do her catch up.

It is pretty easy to tell herself that she's not affected by the Big Gorilla not working. But it is hard to pretend that it really is not affecting her. When Ping first came back from Penang, it was an exciting ride every day. It is always a new beginning. It doesn't work today, sure, maybe it is the vacuum. Opps, maybe not. Maybe it is the timing. Opps, wrong guess again. Maybe it is quenching. There was always something else to try. Now Ping feels like she's done all she had thought of and all that she was told to. So it became the Big Gorilla. Ping starts procastinating doing the next one. Ping was doing it back to back during Christmas break. It doesn't work today, prepare culture for tomorrow. Not again, prepare another for the next day. Now, Ping feels like letting go. But deep down, Ping wants it to work. So does everyone else. But what is Ping doing wrong? The thoughts about it almost rule Ping's life the past week. How can Ping stay optimistic about it? It takes over Ping's sleep. Making Ping tired the next day, procastinating reading and writing up her lab reports (that's done though!!!). Ping rather be reading over the lab she's TAing for. Rather be reading for Bioremediation seminar (which turned out to be a good thing!). Rather be reading for the Adaptation seminar. Rather be working on the rrndb stuff. Even getting more interested in Steph work than her own!! To make the long story short, everything seems to be more attractive than Big Gorilla.

So after Ping had a good weekend finishing up her to-do-list, which makes Ping feel better, Ping decided to get her focus back by thinking about REL strain. It is ready to be measured for drop-off. That is definitely something to be excited about. As for Big Gorilla, Ping will be doing one tomorrow. It is time Ping puts more effort and some tender loving care (as Steph likes to use) in it and make it a good one. Everyday is a new beginning!!!

Then Ping can start making plans to go salsa dancing again.