incompatible

J and I had our first argument today. Yup, we are only at the dating stage and disagreements are stronger than agreements already. I think it's a sign that we should thread lightly. I'm getting tired of trying to make it work and I'm pretty sure he is too. We are totally two different individuals with two different lifestyles. The only thing that we have in common is our love for nature and Xbox. It's the one two things we've done for real anyway. Heck, we never even really did have a classic 'dinner-movie' date.

I was up since 4am yesterday and have been working since. I want to finish this proposal and have Tom look over it before we start anything. It's taking me a long time since I have no idea about Actinobacteria at all. It is starting to be interesting but when something is so new, I need time and lots of reading to grab hold of it. Even more important when it is something that I will be working on for my dissertation. But obviously someone wasn't thinking on my part.

We were suppose to meet after work and I was thinking of cancelling it as I was really tired. So I called his lab but he wasn't there. Fine, I'll wait for him to call me. When he finally did, I told him that I am really tired and hungry. We could just go get something and head back to my place but I am really not in the mood. Then he gave me this long talk about how we haven't seen each other for the past week and that I should have told him earlier I wanted to get dinner because he just had his lunch not too long ago and that I'm leaving in 2 weeks and yet can't find the time to accomodate him. Can you imagine someone telling you all these when you're mentally tired, physically about to fall off the chair and hungry?

Now that it's getting to both of us, I can see that it's not gonna work out. He wakes up way past noon and hunts for lunch. I already have my lunch by then. When I get off work, he's deep in his experiments since he starts work around 2pm. I wanna have dinner by 8pm so that there's at least time for me to snack on fruits and still leave enough time before I go to bed. But he's full by then. I prefer working all day and chill in the park later. He likes to go in the morning and work at night. If it wasn't for weekends, we would probably never see each other at all.

Yup, it's definitely not gonna work. It takes too much 'let's do it your way' for me. A relationship is suppose to work out naturally. Not having to make plans that has to be filled into your daily calendar.